The Office, and other bits of life....

Hey everyone---Well my Husband and I have been working on a home office and we have the results!!! and some of the along the way pics! I failed to take pics of the room before... and the demo pics are saved on my Husbands phone, soon to come :-) 

Went to http://www.lowes.com/  and picked out my lights and http://www.homedepot.com/  for the paint :-) Paint color is Olympic Skysail Blue, flat :-)

My carpenter/lover/ husband, he turned this room around every day off and even days when he worked 12 hours!! Seriously I can't boast enough about him!! Love him

Here is the decor...I am a retro, bohemian, hippie, and city/country girl all wrapped into one...haha hard to explain.

The floor, I was so excited to do this floor, this is a cement floor we stained, semi transparent, and then covered it with a High gloss. So excited I wanna do the whole house!!!!!!!! from http://www.lowes.com/

The completed HOME OFFICE SPACE!! I spend a ton of time here, from school work, http://www.facebook.com/, playing with pics or just music.   Thanks to my Husband for loving me so much to want to make this my space :o)

Have a happy, wonderful day everyone!!!

it calls for Lemonade,

Times call for lemonade, it is a turning point in our lives again. Did I see this coming? I don't know. Did I wish for this? sure, but the fear of it all over rides the immense weight that it once carried. I became a statistic today, I am one of the 15% of NV that is unemployed. Due to the recession my employer had to let me go. I believe that she was emotionally touched today. . . hard for one to believe if you knew her. I also know that she is a business women and must keep her business and family a float.

These things are not what effect me most.
I fear being unemployed, I am not one who is without a job, even in the days when I was using or unhealthy I still maintained employment, mostly because I had 3 young boys to support. I would like to believe that is what I am good at, being an employee.

I can't even comprehend the amount of fear and pressure I am putting on myself at this point in time. The emotions have not even caught up to me yet. It is still all fresh. . . this may have been something that I was hoping for but still not prepared for. I know the toxic environment that I was in and how it allowed me to stay in my sick place. This will give me the opportunity for growth and change. Something I long for. This will give me the chance to show myself that I am more than just a provider, that I can be the stereotypical female, housewife and PTA mom...ha ha you might chuckle a little if you knew me. So there it is folks, expect to hear (read) more from me, seeing as I have a bit more time on my hands now a days...

Neighbors

As I sit here eating my yummy red grapes, trying to get motivated to write my 2 page paper on "Guess who's coming to dinner", I find myself a little peeved with my neighbors.  First allow me to express how I operate on a daily, I work, go to school, and then come home, family time, and then do homework. I deal with people all day long, my job I deal with pissed and obnoxious people all day (I work for a repossession company), at school I am in situations where I must socialize or at least make conversation with someone at some point. Saying all of this I have not much need or want to deal with any other outsiders, just my own family members and sometimes that is even a stretch.

Now let me get to these neighbors of mine, they seem to be the social type, walking up and down the block chatting with everyone, they have caught me a few times and I probably make it shorter than necessary, but that is just how I operate with everyone.  The other day we are shopping and run into them, my husband and I chat with them for a few minutes. Then a few days later my husband is putting new brakes on one of our vehicles, Ty, our neighbor, comes over and wants to shoot the shit... My husband continues working while they chat for quite some time. Then Ty asks my husband where I am from originally and my husband tells him Montana, and it seems as though Ty has an epiphany. He says "Oh that is why she treats me like that." My husband is a little confused but is still working on the truck, so just rolls with it and says "ok."  So our neighbor continues in saying yeah its okay though cause it happens to him all the time.
After dinner a few nights later, my husband tells me the conversation and I am surprised that he has even said this and pissed that I got lumped in a group and stereotyped so quickly. Let me add that my neighbor is a black man. He always mentions his size and how hard it is for him. I find it interesting that he played the race card...because I don't chit-chat with his white wife either.  
All this just solidifies the fact that people will say what they know and choose to hear and feel what they want.
If I were to let him in and converse with this man he might find out that I was raised in a very white, union centered, shallow town, where my family was one of the few mixed families. He may also find out that the color of his skin and the color of my skin doesn't matter to me...there is much more I am interested in...the human RACE interests me, how we work on the inside is my field of study....or maybe he won't!!!

1st

Hi world, just lemme give you a little of who I am,on the general I am a nobody just like the rest of you. I am just on this ride hoping first to be a great Wife, great Mom (saving for therapy now, haha) and overall good person. I would like to knock on the pearly gates with a calm heart and open hand. I work at an average job, which I don't love, I go to school (college) so that I don't have to go to the average job anymore. My husband works his tail off to provide and gives all of himself all of the time. He also works at a job he dislikes...I have found that this is just a part of the journey. Most of the wise ones tell me "oh yea we had the same struggles, same wants, same hates, and same whoo hoos" I would be more professional, but I just don't feel like it today...my day was rough to say the least. Well I could cry and whine, but not today you don't get any of that, sorry we will save the good stuff for later...well its time for chewies and snuggle with my hubby for a while...g'night ya'll